October 10 2010 , 466 days ago. Nothings changed
One day I’ll have enough courage to send you this message and I guess if your reading it than I have. If I could work up the courage to let it all out to make you understand how I felt to get it all off my chest once and for all because it’s holding me down so much. I need you to know that I’ve been waiting for so long. I wish that I could just send you this without it making anything bad or without it hurting one one of the people that has now become one of my bestfriends. I guess I always secretly hoped it wouldn’t work out even though I helped you make it happen. Making others get what they want instead of what I want is my biggest flaw. I have a daily reminder of you and it’s always there, beside me constantly reminding me of why it’s hard to smile. I wonder if anything ever reminds you of me. I bet they don’t. I just want for one day you to know how it feels and to understand how closely I’ve wrapped myself around you. I just need for one day there to be a chance
